"It's Beginning to look a lot like Christmas"

This weekend I went to Target and there it was...the Christmas section. At first I got a bit excited. You know thinking about my own place and decorating my own tree. It really is good but then I thought "wow my family just grew by two more, just in these last months" and then I freaked. Lots of gifts and lots of money.
But then I got excited again when I walked over to the baby section to buy little Jacob diapers, and I thought "oh they have so many cute baby clothes."

My conclusion was that this is going to be a good Christmas. New editions to the family and new ones on the way. Oh and my favorite part....the food....oh the food.

I know so many emotions just in Tagret. LOL!!!

Gray Skies Are Going To Clear UP

I feel much like my old self today. Dont know if it is because I read Alex's blog that made me laught, "Today I blow dryed my hair and went pee at the same time. Not sure if that is completely safe but it was a timesaver." Or if it was the sunshine outside. Either way I feel like Knee. Hope my happiness rubs off on others!!!

I Literally Fell For Him (Really, Down the stairs on our first date)

I really dont know if I made a mistake. The more I think about this the more I question everything. I know I should focus on school and work but the times when I am sitting in this place alone my mind wonders. I am sorry to be a downer lately...you guys know this is not me but really this is harder then I thought it would be.
I am just so mad...why can't things just work out they way you want. I mean I had a horrible horrible realtionship in high school and I was able to come out of that stronger yet here I am needing to be strong to face *them* and I can't. Am I not as strong as I thought I was? Or is it just too hard for one person to handle? Ahhh...I just have to pick myself up and hope that it will all work out some way.

"I know it gets better" -Jason Mraz

Sunday started off as a good day. I had a great pancake breakfast with him and we did some shopping at Target where I got this wine shelf that I have been eyeing for a while. It finally went on sale at a price I could afford. (Was $150, Now $38) After that we went to a Great concert by my main man, Jason Mraz. It was so much fun. Good music, good seats, and good friends. It was after that great day that we had to end it, end us.


I said good bye to my best friend. It is so hard but I figure that God only gives me what he thinks I can handle so I leave it all up to Him now. I hope things work out for the best. Too many thoughts in my head to write it all out. I will miss that great guy who knew me better then anyone. I will miss my dog, My binny binn. I thank him for all that he has shown me and all the self confidence that he is givin me. I wish him all the best and I will always have a place in my heart for Raj.